so, i think i made a decision which, for those of you that know me, is so unlike me.

i woke up this morning severely early due to being sick. instead of trying to go back to bed (i couldn’t, even if i wanted to), i pondered. well, i surfed, really. i got an e-mail from one of my best friends about the latest picture i put up on kettlepot. it was really the first picture i’ve put up in awhile, and she said some nice things about it. i also talked to one of my photographer friends this week about my lack of motivation, direction, and all that. she made a good comment that i think, in some regards, applies directly to me. i feel like a lot of my good shots are luck instead of technique or skill. the old saying “i’d rather be lucky than good” does have its merits. sometimes a great shot is about luck; being in the right place at the right time, or timing something that you capture a shot that’s 1 in a million.

i’ve read my share of books, and blogs, and articles. i’ve talked to other photographers, and experimented. but i think what i need are some actual classes. i’ve been looking at some online classes, mostly because of the travel i’ve been doing and my life schedule. i don’t want to have another excuse to not take a class, i guess. my camera is with me at all times, even when i go out east, so i think an online class offers the best opportunity to continue with the photography in spite of life opportunities. my plan has always been that if i take this class, which covers a wide variety of topics and photography types, that i would then (hopefully) pick an area to focus on and take appropriate local courses here to advance my skill. sounds like a solid plan.

the other thing i’ve been struggling with is upgrading my camera, but the one i want, the Nikon D300, is $1,800. my saving grace has been that amazon didn’t have it in stock, which changed today. they do.

the perfect storm? extra money came in this month.

so, here i sit, way too early in the morning. i’ve been saving up for the course, the camera, and a new guitar. i’m trying to rationalize everything in my head, weigh the pros and cons. it’s enough to make my already churning stomach spin out of control. and then i rationalized it.

i think the course should come first. my camera is a decent, solid camera that is fine for what i am doing (or not doing, as the case may be). i can’t really justify spending the money on a new camera when i don’t really use the current one. really, the only push for me to do it would be because the new camera would do way better in lower light situations, which happens to be where i’ve been shooting mostly lately, and that’s the shows for kerri’s school. but the shots i’m taking are fine. i have two fast, low light lenses i can use. and, realistically, if i bought that camera and only used it to take pictures of the shows, i’d be disappointed in myself.

next will come a new guitar, i believe. we’ve been working on note reading and more classical guitar work, so i think it makes sense to get a reasonable classical guitar to help me work towards that. i guess as the things i work on get more complicated, having the classical guitar will make it easier.

the extra funds this month will then help pay for some of the wedding bills that we’re piling up, which will definitely help me sleep better. then, maybe sometime in the spring or summer, i can look at upgrading the camera. by then, i should be deep into the course work (if not done, assuming i get highly motivated) and have a higher technique to luck ratio.

it seems all logical written out. not bad for some early morning decisions.

as always, i’ve been meaning to write for awhile. i’ve had all these (good) ideas that i’ve been wanting to write about but didn’t take notes and now, after a very long day, my head can’t recall what it once thought was the most important thing in the world.  i’ll work backward and see how far i get…

today we took the ski train up to winter park for some mountain fun. it was actually planned for my birthday, and it was a great present. the ski train itself is worth it, but being up there with kerri and two of my best friends makes it even better. it was a good day, though. it was a cold and we were reminded we need to upgrade kerri’s gear, but we made the most of it. my legs felt good, and my friends, who hadn’t been up there in over a year, did great. i brought the camera but didn’t use it; too cold, too overcast, but more on that later.  this paragraph already had a few things that sparked my failing memory.

my birthday. the big 3-4. i guess i’m destined to prefix all my birthdays from now on “the big”. i still don’t do birthdays, but k had the house decorated when i got home from work, which was awesome. we drank some wine, had dinner, and watched hockey. what more could i ask for? she got me a midi controller keyboard, which was way to expensive but that was very in line with what we’ve been doing musically lately. what a weird thing to say…”what we’ve been doing musically”. a couple of guitar lessons and all of a sudden i’m a musician.

speaking of music… the guitar lessons are going very well. we’re switching back to more classical work so i can focus on my note reading. i’m also continuing to read my music theory book, so things are starting to (somewhat) make sense.  a few weeks ago, kerri and i were playing with a keyboard and she was teaching me a few things, then we went for a few nights with me working on my songs (i have 3 “covers” that i play and (try to) sing) and her playing keyboard accompaniment.  music will always fascinate me, i think. it’s such a combination of so many things…theory, math, formulas, patterns, creativity, passion, soul, everything. i’m not nearly as advanced as i need to be to do the things i want to do, but i have some cool tools (including my birthday present) with which to experiment.

i actually took a few pictures yesterday, too. as i said, i took the camera with us on the train today, which was big for me. i didn’t use it, but it was there. yesterday we went with some friends to an acquaintance’s photography show, and it inspired me a bit. we got to talk to the photographer, and i actually sounded like i knew what i was talking about, which made me feel pretty good. i put two new pictures on kettlepot, which are the first new pictures i think i put up since i redid the website.

a new family guy is on tonight, so i’m totally distracted.

finito!

i spent most of the day updating out wedding website. we had fun trying to come up with the “Dave recommends…” and “Kerri recommends…” sections for all of our out of town guests. the site turned out to be a lot of work, but i like the end result. i spent a few hours working on the flash countdown clock at the bottom of the page with the help of this tutorial. we added some pictures to my flickr account which now feeds the top of the site. in addition to the recommendations, i started putting up some of the other content up, too. with the work i did on kettlepot this weekend and the daveandkerri.com site, i feel like i actually accomplished something, which is great. i need to spend a little time tomorrow doing work-related stuff before we go celebrate new years eve with some friends. new years day should be the museum and then a guitar lesson before returning to work on wednesday. time flies and all that.

i finally got off my arse and redesigned kettlepot which, as it turns out, is a collection of websites that each have a purpose but all share a common look and feel.

www.kettlepot.com: as it was before, kettlepot.com is my photography website that uses pixelpost.

blog.kettlepot.com: same as before…wordpress blog, cleaned up and using the same format as the other sites. i added some additional information, such as books i am currently reading and some random photos from my flickr account (more on that below).

moblog.kettlepot.com: a new site for a project that i want to try, along with thousands of other people. moblog stands for mobile blog, and it will host pictures i take with my camera phone and send in to flickr. i want to try to send in at least one picture a day, which i am hoping should be pretty easy to do. it’s all tied in and automatic now, so all i have to do is send in the picture to flickr and a few minutes later it will show up on my moblog.

the first phase of all of this was to simply get my blog and photography sites looking the same, and in a clean format. it was fun creating templates for pixelpost and wordpress, and i hope visitors feel like all the sites flow nicely and appear to be one site.

i deleted everything from my flickr account and started putting back up pictures in a logical order. i’m also using my flickr account to feed the pictures for kerri’s site, so it’s really all coming together nicely.

next i have to put up some of the previous pictures i had on kettlepot, and maybe bring over some of my previous blog posts. i also need to get working on www.daveandkerri.com and at least one more of my sites.

i’m hoping that getting this stuff done will get me motivated to get back in to everything. with the growing responsibilities at work and the wedding planning, i definitely need an outlet. hopefully the new kettlepot will be just that.